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On monday ( 11 nov )
yi shiuan came to my grandma hse to ton..
hahax. cux she said before tat my grandma hse got those mummy de warm feelin?
CUTE LORHX.
waited for her to come when it was 12AM plus in the midnight..
She went overshot the bus stop when i already told her it's infront of yishun primary.
hahax.. she SOTONG narhx..
When she reach i went down find her..
went to cheers bought fooodddddsss. hahax. she bought more..
went to voideck to slack at 1st..
eatin out food, sending song to each other..

But den........................... SUDDENLY GOT THOSE STUPID CATS MEOWING AWAY!
WALAO! THEY MEOW IS LIKE A DEAD BABY DE SPIRIT CRYING NORHX! WALAOS!
I SCARED DEN ASK YI SHIUAN TO RUN.
but she ran when the cat was watching at her? the cat almost chase us.

den her fred went to my grandma hse to find her and slack + ton together.
they made alot of noise norhx! hahax!
and they went exploring my grandma hse kitchen.
taking out every single thing in the drawer!
CAUTION : DUN PLAY WITH KNIFE AND CHOPPER PLEASE! IT'S DANGEROUS!
zzz.. they behave like small kid.
after tat they left at 4plus ?
alfan and sean, i duno who. also came and ton.
i was tired rite den.. fall asleep..
they keep on disturbing me norhx. especially alfan.. tickkling me.
lols. but i still fall asleep! hahax! im a 100% pig okies. disturbin me is useless!
hahax!
after tat went prawnin.. blahx blahx blahx..
cant remember much alreadyy..

this saturday going town with ANDY (korkor), YISHIUAN (boyfriend), DEREK (piggy).
hahax. going to town and SHOP SHOP SHOP!
EXICTED!




一个人躲在寂寞的角落哭泣。。
希望你能听到我爱你的坚决。。。

Sighs*
i'm more and more confuse now lerhx larhx..
stupid DEREK FOO LI JIE.

1st, u always ask me out for nth..
at there rottin do nth.. say come out slack in the end we didnt slack at all..
All the way sittin down rottin call slack?!

2nd, u got stead liaos den got larhx.. tell me for wad?!
keep on telling me wad happen between u and her..
walao.. den i still hav to pretend tat i hope u and her last.
give u advice blah blah blah..

3rd, u and her break liaos tell me for wad?!
still dare say wad giv u a chance mahx..
walao.. eh.. if wan patch jiu say lorhx... dun make ppl confuse can anot.
u've been making me sooooo confuse for 1month and 10days(after we break)
very very very confuseeeeeee u noe mahx?! ZZZ....

awhile ask me dun contact u, awhile u keep on contactin me like hell..
u ask me dun contact u rite.. i neva contact u for weeks u happy?!
but why i neva contact u but u keep on contact me lehx?!
wad is tat suppose to mean?
And.. why do u still treat be like a stead even though we already break?!
HELLO!!!! CAN U PLS BE MORE STRAIGHT FORWARD?!?!?!
so really damn it larhx.. aiya!!!
TULAN TULAN TULAN!!!

& i really hate promise breakers lorhx.. WTF lorhx..
my dad promise to get me a line + phone.
in the end lehx.. where's my phone?!
walao.. and my biggest brother.. dunno anything jiu beat ppl!
so pro beat me till i die larhx.!!!!
walao!
HATE THIS FAMILY LARHX. I SHOULDN BE IN THIS FAMILY.
OR SHOULD I SAY IT'S NOT MY FAMILY?! IT DOESN BELONGS TO ME.
EVERYTHING I DO SEEMS TO BE WRONG. EVERYONE IN THIS HSE HATED ME TAT MUCH
DEN WHY SHOULD I STAY?! I MUS WELL JUS GO DIE CAN LIAOS.. ZZZ.

waste my time and effort stayin here and tryin my best to change.
WAD FOR?!
DAMN IT LARHX!!!
ALL FUCKERS AND SUCKERS AND BITCHES PLS FUCK OFF LARHX.
SEE U GUYS ONE TIME WHACK ONE TIME ARHX. KNN!
CCB DUN MAKE ME TULAN AND KILL ALL OF U.
I SAY IT AND I MEAN IT OKIES!

SO FUCK OFF NOW!





一个人躲在寂寞的角落哭泣。。
希望你能听到我爱你的坚决。。。

Without you this world feels empty for me.

Without you, i dunno how i should go on.

Without you, my world went blank.

Without you, everything is meaningless to me.

Without you, i dunno who i'm suppose to be.

I Luvex Euu 4va & eva & eva until the day i dies.


this is meant for you.. DEREK FOO LI JIE.



I miss you every secong.

M ay i always be wid you?

I onli wanna hold u.

S ince the day i met u.

S hall we last 4eva?

Y ou are the one in my heart.

O ur luv neva be erase.

U shall always be luvex.



说着笑着的午后，钟声一直在停留风声静静躺着在诱惑。
我一个人在角落 没有你陪伴的我。
连寂寞都笑我太堕落。

广场旁边的烟凑， 烟雾满你面容。
我悄悄背诵你的温柔，喝着加温后的啤酒。
这样美丽的镜头 是否只存在故事之中。

在你的身后 时间把过去都带走
时间把镜头带走不假思索 回忆不放手。
好想再跟你牵着手，牵着你给我的温柔。
哭过以后眼泪还是不停的流。

常常会想起你离开的时候 我悄悄把寂寞放在阴暗的角落。
大雨分割你离去后的路线 眼眶里除了泪，什么都看不见。
回头去捡 河床边 隐藏的那段从前 思念 一遍又一遍出现 我怎么见
寂寞和黑夜到底有什么关系，直到分手的那天我才终于了解。
你的美就算不见，也会让我很思念。
我把回忆削成箭 射向河岸的水面 渐渐浮现。
打湿了我的眼 模糊了视线 我堆集画面 却只剩欠缺
你离去的侧脸 在风中凋谢 同一个画面却重视浮现你要告别。

你的离开让我一直处在不安的状态。。
别再装成熟 说你需要我 求你说出口 我爱你太久
有多少线索再找结果 多希望你不能没有我
时间很脆弱 爱情不能拖
别再考验我 什么时候 你肯为我留下来不走？
我们一直到最后才学会 哭泣时候谁安慰？

好希望有一天我们能回到像从前一样。。
这么的爱彼此。每份每秒都不能没有彼此的那个时刻。
能回去吗？或许一切都是我的错。对不起，我爱你。
我不能没有你，但一切以说得太迟。
不管我在多么的爱你，还是改变不了你已离开我的事实。
爱你与不爱你，都是不可以隐瞒的。
因为我知道我骗不过我自己，爱你从没后悔过。。
我一直到遗憾这两个字该怎么写。


一个人躲在寂寞的角落哭泣。。
希望你能听到我爱你的坚决。。。

check it up, check it up
jus wanna get ur love
check it up, check it up can't u imagine?

失去了可以回去的天空， 依然在飞翔的小鸟们
那是 昨日的我 lonesome days
为心灵上锁 将心情藏起
自从遇见了你 我开始找寻出口。
心意终将传达 一定能够传达。。。
飞越一切障碍 我追求着希望。
不禁使泪流 can't you imagine?

究竟要流多少眼泪 才能坦诚面对自己。
如果心意可以传达， 是否心灵就能满足？
漫漫长夜 令人害怕
向遥远的星光祈祷
周而复始的时光里 我们在巡视着爱情
因为想变得坚强。

到底要遇见何种笑容 才能勇敢走向梦想。
在你我之间 若是找不到爱情
在全世界 无论那里
就不可能存在这种东西
如果分开就没有意义 我希望能毅然决然
boy, i fall in love with you.

始终在找寻 真正的自己
欢笑 悲伤 以及真正的生命
想要在满怀梦想的你身边 把笑容带给你。
我俩究竟 将走到哪里？
无论是怎样的我 你都能为我带来有力而温柔
每当遇见你我的心终是看着你
我所感受到的 或许就是爱情。。

我愿包容你的所有， 你在我心中很重要。。
感觉上我俩之间的距离 似乎靠近了许多。
在自然而然挽着手 似望冷冷天空的时候。
在便利商店选了罐茶 理所当然的与你分享。
被怀抱在你的胸膛中 好幸福。。。
永远永远陪着我
我想深深看着最爱的你
snowflake 是你的温暖。
是冬天的礼物，你瞧下雪了。

即使碰到了难过的事情 与寂寞 遭遇。
我发誓将永远诚实面对 想你的这份心情。
一直一直想告诉你， 谢谢你愿意陪伴我。
雪在飘落 叫人把西奈德人更紧紧地拥抱怀中。
一面搜寻着礼物 一面感受着。
原本不可能结合的两颗心 彼此结合得不可思议。。
请永远永远陪着我好吗？
我想他上路程 去寻找同样的梦。

The white white snow's coming tonight.
make a wish upon ur kiss..

all i ned is euu being by my side.
没有你在身边的日子真的好寂寞，好孤单。
我爱你。 这是永远都不会改变的。。

原本以为我可以放下，但是。。每当一次又一次的像放下的时候。 终会想起你对我的好，我犯的错你都原谅。
而我。。什么都没做到反而一次又一次得让你失望。。
对不起。
一切都是我的错，我没有权利再留你在身边。
如果你走了以后更快乐，那我会笑着去祝福你。
因为我犯的错太多太多了。连我自己也原谅不了我自己。
我希望我走了以后。。你能过得很快乐。

好想好想回到你的身边，但也知道那是不可能的了。。
最近没有你在身边我才了解了你对我的重要。
我从来都没有想过爱情会变得这样无奈。。
倔强说不痛，假装什么上都没有。倔强太激动，决不让眼泪往下流。
我想我还是不过成熟，还达不到你的要求。

爱我的话给我回答。 我的爱丫爱丫没时差。 等待是我为你付出的代价。。 爱我的话要回答，我只等你等你一句话。 你走太远太远你的回答我听不见。

爱你是我这一身最幸福的事。
我会把我们的一切一切姥姥地记在心里。。
我爱你。



一个人躲在寂寞的角落哭泣。。
希望你能听到我爱你的坚却。。

sighs*
seriously alot of things has happen lerhx..
wad should i do sia.. hias...
B.. u leaved me..
Where is the promise? where is our yi bei zi.
i dun see it lerhx.. sighs..
ni qing yi de jiu ba fang qi liang ge zi gei shuo chu kou.
sighs*
TXND is a promise i made to you and it will forever be there.
sighs.

Abt exam/.. no mood care lerhx narhx.. all mood are being mess up lerhx.
being cruel to everyone isn't me?!
is it?! i dun feel anything anymore.. all i hab is a numbed heart now.. sighs*
why is everything so unfair to me?!
why is it tat everything i wanted to treasure all went lost.
wad have i've done?

the promise i made. did i really broke them, or is it those promises aren't being granted so easily?
sighs*
why is my mind thinkin of everything this way.
why cant i jus cool down and forget everything abt hims?
hiass.....
really dunno wad to do le.. god also cant help me lerhx..
all i wan is you to come back to me.. my wish is jus tat simple.
im leaving le u also dun feel anythin ma?

sighs..
jus wad the hell is happenin?
sight*
suffering in everything..
jus cant seems to let everything down.
sighs*

Everything im holding is everything i cant let go..
and it refers to you.
DEREK FOO LI JIE!
no one will replace you foreva and eva.
every single memories of yours stay inside my mind and couldnt be erase and neva would be erase..

live on without you is a impossible..
sighs*

Hmms.. did nth special today..
sianx.. like rotted all the way?
somemore today ned stay back i forgotten sia..
went to fredz hse den too tired dozed off while i was sitting at the sofa?
woke up it was like 4pm+
den i was like.. wah piang how sia.. ned stay back i forgot.
sleep until now somemore.
zzz.. i dozed off at my fred hse de sofa he didnt even care me norhx. walao so bad sia.. this stupid son. mummy piak u den u noe arhx..

sigh.. after tat went to met B..
did nth.. rotted at TZ den we went walkin around like idoits.
zzz.. really boring..
nth to do, i shall end off here. =)



一个人躲在寂寞的角落哭泣。。
希望你能听到我爱你的坚决。。。

Ytd, met yishiuan and went to her hse to pass her things.
after tat we took 980 to novena. wanted to drink mango lingo.
but saded norhx. the shop close down liaox.. sighs*

hmms.. after tat we dunno wan go wher norhx. went to a hello kitty shop lolx.
the things inside so cute sia. even i also almost fall for hello kitty.
hahax!
i went to buy ice cream and eat. cux it was so bored... zzz
walao guess wad? the ice cream damn exp norhx. 1 scoop $3 arhx. very small scoop somemore. but very nice nehx.. hahax.
hmms.. after tat yongay called yishiuan and ask if we wanted to play candle.
den i said anything norhx. hahax.

so we went back yishiuan hse and she change her shoe, putted her bag.
went to sch outside de basketball court met chen xiang, yong shen, and ming yang.
onli three person?! they tell us got alot ppl.. lolx.
after tat abt anothrt 5 to 6 ppl came met us?
hmms.. it was boring at 1st. cux they were boiling wax dunno for wad.
den me and yishiuan saw alfan! hahax, we went disturb him!


sianx.. really nth to do. we like rotted there norhx.
after tat 11plus lerhx.. i told yishiuan i ned to go home cux my dad called.
she said stay awhile more den okies norhx.
At this moment i somehow turn into a god.
i was talkin to yishiuan

me : "eh.. we go home liaox narhx. i very tired sia. my dad call somemore.."
yi shiuan : "huh? stay awhile more nehx.. i jus got some candles to play nehx."
Me : " sighs* okies norhx.. but play faster scarly we tio screen den ho seh arhx. hahax!"
at this moment.. one police car came up the hill. the car parked jus rite infront of my eyes. den yishiuan still playin candles. i told her softly. eh.. stop the fire.. mah tah mah tah!
she look at me ; "where?"
i point my finger den she turn over.
walao eh.. kao..

they all suan me sia..
ALL :" walao eh.. limin, u next time dun anyhow talk liao larhx. really come true sia.."
i at there so ps norhx.
the police talk till very xia lan somemore.
the things not we burn de also ask us to clean.
guan lan kia. mother never teach u wad is respect is it?!
feel like whackin him norhx.

reached home abt 1 plus?
after tat went to chamber there and pack things for me and my bro to eat.
yi shiuan went home abt 3am+?

hmms.. okies narhx.. the rest i dun rmb liaox..
byes

hmms..
tml going to celebrate lerhx..
but not sure if everything will happen as it's plan..

sighs.
a few days ago jus quarrel wid B.
but jie help us to settle lerhx..
but today.. dunno why we quarreled again..
jus suddenly he told me he cant stand my attitute anymore?
requested a break?

halox..
i didnt do anything wrong u noe..
i tryin my best to change all my bad point,but some has already became a habit before i met u..
but u didn't noe it..
now, everything seems to be my fault.

But! have u ever think.
[c=16]Everytime when u mention abt ur ex. u became emo and u start to tell me u and her pass. do u noe how i feel?i guess u onli noe how to ask ppl if they noe how u felt. u begged me to let her return back to you. but she has pasted aways. i cant help u but i'm trying everything i could to help you. but there isn't anyway to let a dead person come back to life. do u noe how much time and effort i ned to spend to tell myself tat i'm not a replacement at all. you really do love me. u told me tat. how should i trust u now?! u also told me tat u neva treat me as her replacement. again and again i cant let myself to trust u again.[/c]

sighs..
everything is more confuse now..
Babiie i dun wan to waste another day.
keepin it inside me is killing me.
i jus wan to make a contract to you tat i will neva leave you.
i wish tat i could find the word to say.
babiie i'm telling you tat everytime you leave i'm inconsolable.
and i'm also telling you tat everything i'm holding is everything tat i cant let go.

but if u letted go of me. i cant do anything.
but i onli can tell u tat. i cant take another blow anymore.
我想要珍惜过一段爱情。 但是那时没有人了解我，连他都以为我只不过是在说谎，我只不过想要把他留在我身边。。 但是我没有。
这次也不例外。 我是真的真的很爱你。 但是你好像也没有发觉到， 我的心房会永远为你而开。。
但是你却把我关在外面。 我走不进你的心里。 你和他的记忆一直在你的脑海你旋转， 你忘不了她， 这让我真的很难过。

but no matter wad i would always be by ur side..
sighs..
B i really do love you..
sighs...




一个人躲在寂寞的角落哭泣。。
希望你能听到我爱你的坚决。。。

sighs..
now adays also same same norhx.. sighs..
although we did talk.. but after she came their attitude to me jiu change norhx..
saded sia...
hmms.. but at least it better narhx.. still got talk. hehex..

mummy(linda) thx for helpin me pierce nehx.. =)
now give me play until straight le.. hees*
i miss u guys alot norhx..
hmms.. dunno how to say norhx... now adays nth special happen..

ytd pei babiiex go old woodland pierce his lips..
after tat when back to north point slack..
nobody there norhx.. zzz.. rotted..
den got 2 guy is babiiex de fred at Blk440 give ppl beat..
den we heard le very angry so called ppl to check who are they den when down to settle? i didnt go ofcux.. he dun let me go..
hmms..

for tml nehx.. going to play basketball with babiiex, jie, and kor..
hehex. maybe got other ppl also bahx.. lolx..
challenge would be more fun. XD


5 more days to 1month annnivesery.. =X
going to bake cookies for him to eat =)
with secret ingredient inside.. shhh..(it's a secret)
he say buy thing giv me sia.. hehex.. tempted to noe wad is it..
hehex..

gonna sleep now.. nitex everyone.



一个人躲在寂寞的角落哭泣。。
希望你能听到我爱你的坚决。

Today.. did nth special.. lolx..
in english class. miss neo leaving lerhx.. hia.. she give us mushmellow and a tiny staple.. so cute norhx.. hahax..
den in math nehx.. hahax i didnt pay attention at all..
i was day dreamin, trying to focus but i cant.. today the topic seems to be boring..

chinese lesson.
chen xiang, xing yan, jun hao, jeradine and vivian ho presented something.
after they presented we ned do compo. 400 words norhx.. but teacher say mus be 1 page an a half full. walao at first tot alot narhx.. but i wrotten 2 page full. lolx.
so proud of myself. hahax.

after sch.. went to pass cookies to sharep.
di di called me and said someone tio his fred. bully his fred.
den he ask me go down.. lolx. den i went down. half way it was rainin.
walao i got all wet norhx. so angry..
in the end he ask me go his sch fetch him.. zzz..
so went to his sch and fetch him.
den went back to north point slack awhile..
but no one was there so boring.. den didi ned go home le.
so he headed home?

i was so boring.. nth to do.. msg babiie.
he called me. but he didnt come out.. zzz..
until now whole day neva really contact.. he seems to be very down today.
cux he msg me and say he no mood. and type till very sad like tat.
hmms.. tried to cheer him up jus a couple of minutes ago.. but he doesn't seems gettin any better. sighs i so useless..
so letted him to cool down until tml..

hmms.. babiie arhx babiie.. u always ask me to cheer up.
now become u emo lerhx... i cant seems to cheer u up..
i like very useless siol..
hmms.. jus hope tat u would be fine soon..
i always by ur side de.. okies..
with one call i'll be to ur rescue no matter how far u are..
ask me chiong go changi jus to met u awhile or lean u a shoulder i will also go.
babiie u are really very important to me.
i love u like i neva eva love no one before u.

我的笑送给你希望你快乐，你的难过都给我。
我会一致的陪着你知道我生命的最后一秒。
快乐很重要。。只要你快了我也会快乐。

counting down..
10 more days till one month.. =)
5th september will be celebratin.. i will rmb tat well..







一个人躲在寂寞的角落哭泣。
希望你能听到我爱你的坚决。。

Hmms.. it has been days seens everything happen..
although the hate is there. but, i cant seems to hate them anymore..
我学会了原谅这两个字。或许他们只不过是些不会像的小孩吧。。
我不会再像以前的事，应为哪都已经是过去的了。

the pass are the pass isn't it?
Why do u guys behaving so childishly? huh?
u guys sec wad lerhx huh?! got sec 4 de sec 5 de and sec 3 de..
how come ur brain are primary sch de?! u tell me?
are u guys really tat dunno how to think or wad..

hia.. dun wanna care abt u guys lerhx..
i was good to u guys.. but u guys didnt noe it.
u guys tot i was jus pretendin to be good to u guys.
i did change for u all.. did u guys relise it? i dun think so..
every single one of u seems to take it for granted.
i hate ppl who are like this..

but okies. i forgive..
hia.. jus wish u guys will live on happily bahx..
even though i cannot be with u guys i have no regrets.. i did treasure the time while im with u guys..


i'm happy tat i met u babiiex..
I LUVEX EUU YI BEI ZI!
ALL THE LOVE WE MADE CAN NEVER BE ERASE.
PROMISE ARE NOT MEANT TO BE BREAK!






一个人躲在寂寞的角落哭泣。。
希望你能听到我爱你的坚决。

hmms.. quite alot of things happened now adays..
hia.. dunno how to say also..
jus cramp them up into my heart barhx..
no matter how i think, i feel like he( not royston ) is avoidin me norhx.
hia.. yi shiuan.. maybe wad i think was correct and wad u said was correct barhx.

If everything really turn out in tat way den i have no choice norhx..
silently barhx.. sighs..
wad really does lasting long or 4eva means?
is it jus a word tat someone say out for fun? when the person in chong dong?
hia.. i really dun get it.
i've tot i would have cleared up all the mess.. but it seems tat a pile of new mess is coming rite up..
hmms.. really dunno wad norhx..

wad exactly is everyone thinkin?
can he see tat i luvex him so much? i really let go of royston lerhx..
hia.. Babiiex, no matter wad i promise u de i will zuo dao.
and u did promise me tat u wouldnt live me alone de...
today i cant get to see the point.
i was in a bad mood a great mess jus now.
tryin to contact u and find u, but u didnt reply my msg.
ur fred replied and said tat u're busy. but i dun believe it's ur fred.
the typing is the same as urs...

if u wan to end jus tell me..
我现在心里很不好过，每分每秒都在想你。。
你知道吗？我已经不知不觉地为了你放下他。但你时许没感觉到什么。
但我能很清楚地告诉你，爱你并不孤独。
如果我们真地在这一瞬间分手了。 希望我们还能做朋友吧。
或许是我想太多了，但在我脑海里， 你的身影不断地出现。
我到底该怎么办？是你让我再次相信爱情这回事。。我希望你不会像他一样让我失望。

i dun care wad they say..
i'm in luvex wid u.
they try to pull me away
but they dunno the truth.
my heart script from body, the pain tat keep me frozen.
but u melted the ice for me...
i could feel the warm hand of urs..


I LUVEX EUU NO MATTER WAD.
THE PROMISE I MADE, I WILL KEEP THEM.
BUT I HOPE THE SAME WILL GOES TO EUU.
I DUNNO WAD I MIGHT DO RIGHT NOW.
IM NOT THREATENIN. U STILL CAN LEAVE ME.
IM JUS TRYIN TO SAY WAD I WANNA SAY.

I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THE WORDS EUU SAY. AND U SAID U WOULD NEVER LEAVE ME ALONE EVEN IF I VANISH FROM THIS WORLD DERHX.
希望你准收你的诺言。。。。。

owwww..
wad on earth is really happenin..
i dun get anything now..
it's seems tat everythin tat is happenin around me are all full of sadness..
nth can change the fact le bahx..
i tot i could be happy.. but it doesn't seems to be it lerhx..

hia... ps guys.. i noe i broke my promise..
i dunno why u guys suddenly dun like me so much.. but all i noe is after wad happen abt me and him and also him and her..but.. u guys doesn't noe wad happen..
im really tired of everything.. how i wish tat i was neva be born to this world..
all the unhappyness and things tat are unwanted will be gone ONCE AND FOR ALL.

i guess all i have now is jus a empty heart. empty soul. empty body.
tat doesn't feel anythin any longer.. all the things tat had happen is enough.
im tired of everything already! jus one more word tat pushes me and hurts me.. i wouldnt tolerate anymore.. i shall and for sure, jus become the unwanted me.
i wouldn care wad u guys say or comment abt me.. jus 1 punch will be whack towards u.

NTH! I WILL NOT TOLERATE ANYTHIN FROM NOW ON!
MAKE SURE U DO SPEAK SOMETHING PLEASENT INFRONT OF ME!

你对我说你最爱的是她。。
但你所做的一切对我来说影响是多么的大。。现在我也学会了怎么放开手。
但我也就是做不到。
我只能躲在一旁哭泣，在我心里你是无法被任何人取代的。
你终究还是不了解我的新到底在想什么。。
你我不该有开始也不该有结束。这样或许对你我都好吧。。

没有了你没有爱情什么都已经是空气。没有你的日子也没有了自己。
你到底明白吗？ 我真的好害怕，我不过时间去珍惜你。。
你的心底到底还有没有我？为什么你要一而再，再而三的打扰我的世界。
我能放手时你就凭了名的缠着我。现在我无法放手了，你确离我而去。
到底你要的是什么？What the hell do u wan from me?
i'm totally in a mess now. it's all becux of u.
i've tried to let go..but u pull me back to the spot where im being hurt the most.
now tat i couldn't let go..u throw me aside and never turn back.
wad am i really to u? dun tell me tat is over..come and play ur darkess tower!

even if u found out of this(cux u dun have my blog wahaha)
i wouldnt tell u the truth. it's all in ur heart.
if u really luv her the most. i could onli watch..
but if u are jus toyin with her. stop it.
dun let another innocent person get hurt becux of u.
the way u actin towards her and infront of me.. i cant see everythin out..
hope tat u will really be TX to her.

If u are TX u wouldn't have say : " Hongster Never Die, Tiong Xim First To Die!"
it shall be the opposite side.. " Tiong Xim Never Die, Hongsters First To Die!"
u shall prove it tat u are TX. and i shall prove it tat im not a Hongster.
but a TX freak.. believe anot it's up to u.. nobody can stop u..

HND and TXND.
which one do u vote for guys?
my life and heart are weakenin.. i dun think i hav tat much time to wait for his reply or anythin anymore..
treasure every seconds tat i spend with u guys.
if i "black out" dun worries.. i'm not livin till i make things clear upon him and me..


YISHIUAN IS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME!
HAHAX. AIZAI ARHX YISHIUAN!
TXND RAWS..
MISS YISHIUAN ALOTALOTALOTALOTALOTALOT ARHX.

YISHIUAN! AFTER READIN THIS DUN CRY ARHX HAHAX.
SISTERS...
AND ALSO.
YISHIUAN I ALWAYS BE THERE FOR U ALSO DII..
HAHAX XD

我。。没有办法让自己不爱你。没办法让自己不去想你。。
多么希望当时我没遇见你，这样我也不会动了心。也不会伤害了自己的心。
我为什么还爱你，为什么好想着你。。
我。。不是已经答应了要放手，要把你给忘记。

我们已经分开了。你也有了新的爱人。。为什么还叫我想着你？为什么还叫我要继续爱着你？
你。。是还爱着我，还是你只不过想让我跟痛苦一些些？
我被你的爱搞得好乱。。我一分不清什么是爱情什么是游戏。
但我很清楚我的心还是有你，还是爱着你。这是我无法改变的事实。
但同时我也不知道你到底是爱我的，还是只想我痛苦。
就请你把你心里的话告诉我。。让我好过一些些。

我们分手已经快一个星期了。。我们都好像还忘不掉彼此。
好像问你到底是什么原因让你能这么狠心地把握丢在这里。
我为什么还在这发呆？
是你让我变成了今天这个懂得爱一个人，珍惜一个人的一个人。
以前的我，不知道什么是爱。不懂得这么去珍惜在我身边的每一个人。。
但现在我明白了这一切，你却要离我而去。
我的新一只告诉我，我还爱着你。是永永远远的爱而不是大家所说的小孩的天真。
我是不是真的爱一个人，只有我还有我的新最清楚。
没人能够比我跟了解我自己。没人能取代你在我心中的地位。

"marmiee","nu er"
你们说过我为了他而改变了很多。。我只知道我爱他但我不知道我在不知不觉中改变了这么多。



我希望我能挽救这段感情。但这一次，我会好好地去爱你。好好地珍惜你。我不会再放开双手，因为我知道你就是我生命中的那个人。。没有了你在身边，那其他的都是多余。。

傻子才以为 开始的特别 结束就会完美。
你在我耳边 说过的话 变得遥远。
我听见的周围 遍满你们对我不利的留言。
我心中很胆绝* 却无能为力看爱被他偷却*。

我奢求多一天 能保留你在身边。
还以为能将你挽回。。 当你说了不要再见， 亲爱的我是傻了眼。
我的心 到地离你有多远。
难道真的煤油设么让你留恋，我多嫉妒他让你坚决。。我们的永远 你一看不见。
怎么会不见，你让我手无寸铁。
如果能到留时间，我会。。我会。。我会。。再回到从前 再见你一面。
至少能够让我说声再见。。再抱你一边，然后就让你自由地去飞。
就不再想念， 就不再想念。。。。

傻子才以为 开始的特别 结局就会完美。
心说变就变，所有回忆变得遥远。。。
我奢求多一天 能保留你在身边。
还以为 他一厢情愿。
当你说了不要再见，多希望我能听不见。。

我们的永远就这样被你忘掉。。一点也不甚。
我。。会让你自由去飞。 也不会再去想你。
放下后，我们就各自自由了。。不会再有悲伤，不会在留恋。。
从今以后，你自由了。。
不会有我在你身边，也不会有我把你叫醒。。
你要好好的照顾自己。。我是多么不容易才放手的。。

这咖啡 清晨里依旧冒着烟。
这光线 给人在开始的幻觉。
在唇边 我来不及说的再见。
不能改变 像你更浓烈的我。

当明天 永远都不会再出现。
我心愿 悬在半空里面。
相距绝 相信这真的是句点。
现实面前 无从辩解的我。

我的手臂 应该抱你在紧一点。
烙印你的脸，收回的这机会。
才发现 对你吝啬得可怜。
一瞬间 我给你的爱 遗憾的只有欠缺。

我的眼泪 应该为你一次发泄，记住这感觉。
陪我到终点 我不想它退欠，刻在脑里面。
四年是我唯一的安慰。

当今天 不保证还有明天。
人多么卑微却遍遍说永远。
该多说几遍对你的爱和感谢 还有抱歉。
就算 我爱你不会变。
可是你再开不见。。

听回忆呼吸，长达一世纪。
脑海中都是你， 冷飕飕城市像无声的电影。
让孤单教我演戏。。。

幻想我可以把时间到回去
那时候 我们才相遇。
也许我没搭上爱情的时光器。
可是我永远不会忘记。

爱你第一个原因 就是你的安静。
你就是那么特别那么唯一。。
虽然你像一朵云飞出了我的记忆。。我爱你别忘记！
我思念这段过去 没有人可以代替
记得我爱你每个原因。
别管我了不了解永远着一个谜语。
从今天到以后我心中有你。。 永不忘记

我们或许从一开始就不应该在一起。
你。。还是无法忘记她。口口声声说你爱我但你心里却有着另一个人，你要我这么去相信你。
我一直在心里对自己说你不是那种人，我急需的催眠自己让自己相信你让自己不会被上害。
但是我自尧一旦开始催眠我自己痛苦就会根深一些。

我。。会开始慢慢的习惯没有你在身边的日子。
你现在在那你一不重要，应为你已不再爱我。别擦去这最美好的过去，我们相爱过的记忆。
也许忘记你的日子会好过一点，我就在这里放开双手。一旦放开就再也不会握着你的手了。
谢谢你对我的好也谢谢你对我的坏，我会把他们好好地放在心底。
我们就这样结束了，我再也不会回头了再也不会为你而掉泪。

或许放下这段感情后会有一个比你还爱我的人出现在我身边。我会使着去相信下一段感情。
但或许我放不下这段感情，会永远永远的被困扰着。如果你是真心的爱我就请你在我还没放开手之前拉着我的手
但也许我的好早就被你都忘掉。

你离开我以后是否很幸福。 我忘不了也得不到，这痛苦也太清楚。
Where are u now 现在过得好不好。
我希望我们仍让是朋友。我不会在逃避你，也希望你能够。
再见了。我会牢牢的记住你给我的一切。

我会好好过，等你在爱我。 怎样的笑容才让你想起我。

Lol. me and boiboi break afew days den patch lerhx.
At 1st, when we break off. i saw him but i didnt talk to him at all.
I dun even wan to look at him or say a single word to him.
But den, he tell everyone things. i feel tat they are plannin somethin.
Suddenly he ask linda mummy to help him buy things.
mummy ask me folo den i folo lorhx. he also folo.

Den we went to a blk there slack.
At 1st i was sittin and talkin with mummy.
den boiboi went to the my back say there more coolin. lolz.
but i noe somethins wrong. cux mummy and the walk away.
i didnt wan to sit alone with him so i walk down the staircase and walk away.
He chase up from behind..boiboi say he got things wan to say to me.
it was a deadend infront. so i turn back and walk away.

den he grab my hand and ask to patch.
I didnt agree rite den. i had start to let go and suddenly u pull me back.
i didnt reply him and continue walkin till i saw mummy.
Pull mummy down the stair with me. wanted to talk to her.
but before i even start to open my mouth and speak a word.
Tears drop down..

linda mummy tot somethin wasn't rite. she shout for boiboi.
Boiboi rush down the stairs to see wad happen.
mummy tell boiboi."Er zi, i ned help here."(pointin at me)
boiboi came to me. jus den, more tears drop down.
i cant stop them..boiboi hold on tightly to me. [i felt more sad den]
{from my mind, i was thinkin. u given me at all the sudden. now u wan me to go back to u so sudden.im a human who contain bloods contains feelings.}
for the 2hrs there. i've been cryin in boibois arms.
he was worried. but i jus didnt wan to say a word. so he can onli silently bao hu zhe wo.

After all tat happen. the few days after tat. we've plan to let go of each other.
but we cant. we still miss each other. we'll still get worry, angry and sad of things tat happen to the other part of us.
infront of ourself. we dun show them out. but jus by msg.
I guess, tat's the onli way he could talk to me.
cux i didnt speak to him a single word..
Now, everythin is clear. we really cant let go.
so we are here tgt again.

Hope tat we could really understand the true meanin of luv.
how important we are to each other.
and forever lastin long. this are jus wishes.
I guess, i can onli try my best to let them come true.

yi shiuan. u'll also have to make up ur mind.
no matter who is it. we wouldnt side anyone but we are all fredz no matter wad.
if there's anythin tat u really cant decide on ur own jus tell us.
I dun wish to see u in the same mess tat im in few dayys ago.
U'll regret till tat day comes. make things clear now..